Making a difference

Do you know that feeling that you get when you help someone, When you make a difference in someone's life. When you help someone and don't expect anything back, the feeling is unexplainable. Seeing God's work being done throughout the city has been amazing and it's only Sunday. I will be in the city until Thursday, just picture all the people that are going to be touched. I need to back up though. I haven't written in a while because I've been struggling. I was letting Satan pull me in and pull me down. I had just gotten notice that my missions trip in maryland was official, the dates and
everything. Once things were starting to look very positive and Satan started attacking my weakness, my low self-esteem. I was on my knees crying out for help, just searching and at one point I thought maybe it would be much easier to just give up God b/c it seemed like all my problems started when i became active for Him. Needless to say that didn't last very long, I soon fell back to my knees crying, wanting God more than ever. I wanted to know why I was struggling. I talked with my mentor and with a friend from church, and with a pastor, and finally with my campus minister, to collect some ideas and verses or books in the Bible to answer my questions and help kill some of the doubt. I was preparing and trying to prepare my heart for the spring break missions trip that I had about 3 days left for and I was slowly figuring it all out. The day before I left for spring break missions, I went to the Skillet and Toby Mac concert. After Skillet was over and Toby Mac was about half way to 3/4's of the way through his portion he sang his single CITY ON OUR KNEES. I raised my hands in full worship, just giving my heart to God, and listening to what He wanted to tell me. When the song was over I felt renewed for Christ and that I was 100% ready to go on spring break missions and do what God had planned. Me and 2 girls had a sleepover after concert a.k.a "speed pack session" of which I still forgot stuff. lol. Anyway, I am here in the city on spring break missions and I will be here until thursday. I am doing devotions tomorrow night, so please be in prayer for me. I will post on the next two days, then I will post on the last two days but I will also be working with winter relief at my church on friday so the last post wont be until sometime on saturday. I know it's going to be alot coming at you at once but God has given me alot to say so please just bear with me.